thank you Daddy GOD

my heart feel more at peace now.even though at times i will heart itchy wanting to do the thing i want to do.
this is really what happen.
as you have known.Ruth wants to run for tpsu right, but because of some reason, i dun know why i dun wanna run.and then i wanted to run bsc.cause they told me no one running.ok.then this year.i was like ' which one should i run for, tpsu or bsc?' this issue really bothers me ever since school opens.cause su really make me grow.then it will be a waste not to run for su.argh!
then that day.i ask GOD,show me something.tell me whether i should run for su or bsc.like show me more su ppl or show me more bsc ppl.but nothing of this come true.i cant possibly count the number of ppl i see right?maddness man.to think of this, i am stupid to do that.then that night, we are supposed to meet up to celebrate Ethel's birthday.Ramona, Xiaohui, Elizabeth, Desmond, Coach Gary, Jessy and i were there.yea ya.and we went to Sushi Tei.took alot of photos.will upload it soon.super fun.we took alot of stupid photos together.hehe.love it.and then Coach Gary just randomly talk to me and stuff.then later we talk about school and what did i do everytime after school.so i told Coach.and he told me.as a student.studies is first.not any other thing.i super agree with what Coach says.then Coach was abit shock at what i have been doing at school.haha.and then.he confirm my decision.not to run for su.

on last thurs.after the SL appreciation dinner.those who wanna run for main comm for bsc were suppose to meet up la.then Nic ask whether i wanna run.at that time.my heart was like should i or should i not?then i just said yes.then i went for the meeting.the ppl i see going up for the meeting.made my heart troubled.then i saw Eugene, Desmond, Curly, Chester, Johan, Grace Peh, Alex, Moyli, Shihua, Sylvia, ZhaoLin and few more i dun know their names at al.i was shock.and was like.ok.so fun.then they ask us to answer this stupid question. ' why do you want to run for bsc?' i was like.what is this question about man.shouldnt have stayed.should have just go off to meet my cg.it is like.i dun know what to say la.yea ya.cause in sec sch.i planned alot of this kind of events already.then in poly.i am also exposed to events planning thanks to iguides and su.yea ya.awesome. :) then i left the place with a heavy heart.alot of things went through my mind.and thank GOD for Drus.really.my best friend in poly.we went through up and downs together.and we left school together.and we had a good long heart to heart talk.she is troubled and i am troubled.two troubled ppl talking together.so cute can.then she is so sweet.rush down to bugis with me.love her to the max. :) and Sean was awesome.he came to fetch me.he rocks la.then i went to spend time with my cg.love it.really love them alot alot.feel so happy, so myself when i am with them.awesome. :) then we went mac to eat and chat.really love that time.i had htht with a few of them.i am like a mad woman going around to talk to ppl.this is my first time htht with Joey.seriously.not bad right?we got common topic.wahaha.then i set off to home.and my daddy being so nice as always.called me to pick me up.he rock can :)

for today.we had to meet for core members meeting.to train us to lead a devotion.yea ya.it was awesome.we meet up earlier to eat lunch together.then we set off to the meeting.we were the first one to reach man.so proud of tp.awesome :) then we took our temperature.so cute lor.then i was asking GOD and my friends around for direction to whether to run for bsc also.and i told GOD to show me a sign.cause i dun want to give up my time with my family and friends and time at church.to me now.GOD comes first, then family and then my close friends.that is my goal. :) so i am not willing to give up my time with them for other things.seriously.then i was like still heart itchy to run for bsc leh.then during the meeting.one thing Coach talk about that hit my head.cause he was sharing.Daddy GOD wants us to choose life.and what is the differences between life and death.it is that DEATH IS WHEN YOU FEEL SIAN AND DUN FEEL THE PEACE!! this really hit my head right spack in the middle.thank GOD for that.
and i really enjoyed today learning with Coach Gary.one thing he said that i am really paiseh.is that during devotion.dun choose a place where ppl get distracted easily.like keep saying hello to people.then he act out the hello hello HELLO HELLO until super funny.and Ran and Amos first thing was like THAT IS RUTH THAT IS RUTH!!then Jeremy behind was like RUTH LA RUTH LA!!then i was telling to WeiYang i where got like that?then he was like actually when Coach said that, the first person that came to his mind was ME!!!i was like Yang,how can u do this to your good friend too? :( haha.but i feel really bad.on thurs, before Ran, Daryl & Sean set off to steamboat, i wanted to meet them to chat.so we met around cheers there.and seriously i tell you.i am really sorry to them.throughout the whole journey out to business school.i didnt have one sec to talk to them.cause i was saying hello endlessly to my other business sch friend.then i thought that after i get out of business sch.i can talk to them,.BUT!got other friend walk past and talk to me.then at mushroom, my empire was there.and then i have to talk to the freshies.ok.I AM SORRY.but i still love u all yea.awesome :) hehe.
and after the whole sharing and prayer.Coach Gary approached me to end the prayer by praying for the service later.i was like Daddy GOD, please give me something to pray.and i was really filled with the HOLY SPIRIT.and Daddy GOD really showed me what to pray.and on top of that, when i was praying.i was holding back my tears.really holding it back so badly.it is like, if i let it out.u can hear my voice change.then thank GOD.my prayer ended.then Coach Gary was sharing.then i feel myself shaking a little.and i couldnt stop tearing.dun know why.so i jsut keep looking at the floor.dun dare to look else where.and then quickly wipe my tears away.but that time with GOD was AWESOME!!love it.
then i went htht with Weiyang.i need to htht with him.cause he is the closest and best friend i have in my tp cg.so that why.and he really make me feel so touch.he even leave me a message after we left to tell me.to stop getting influence from other ppl as Daddy GOD has already sent answer to me already.awesome :)

then service was awesome man. :) Ran and Eliz so cute la.later we sit together ok?then Ran was like you sitting with Weiyang right?then how?i was like can one la.never mind.hehe.so cute la the two of them.then we went to the front to stand and jump like mad man.really mad.and i force Mark to jump and he did really stupid and hilarious thing until i was so entertained by him.seriously.i cant stop laughing.haha.and i really went high.cheered like mad man.my bet.haha.love the service.i cant believe i can stand for 2 hours like that.it was awesome :) love it man.

then we went for dinner together.Yang and i sat with the two lame funny couple, Demelza & Kayden.they super duper cute leh.and they are both my age.i got a shock.haha. :) then we eat together.it was entertainment throughout.seriously.i enjoyed myself to the max man. :) haha.then the stupid Kayden was like every guy i said hello to, he was like your boyfriend your boyfriend.so crappy la.haha.but the two of them really combo.we got this joke that i said Yang and Shan is together for 8 years and Demelza was like, so we together for 10 years le.and Kayden was like yea ya.we were friend since young.then they go buy pampers.and he said she see her so cute, and Demelza was like yea ya, i so chubby.and he was like yea ya, and her fat cute legs also.then i couldnt stop laughing and i laughed out super duper loud.really cannot take it le.their combo was awesome man.seriously.haha.really glad to know the two of them.very funny la.haha.so cute lor.one got in water polo team, the other tennis team.one so pretty and one so handsome.really a good pair.not bad.they marry, i will throw flower.haha.and Kayden keep wanting to pair me up with a guy.i was like nono, till 21.haha. :)

and i thank GOD for the people around me.showing me their love and care and concern.and being here to play a part in my life.RUTH LOVE TP CG AND ITE CG ALOT ALOT :)
when the camp comes.it will be heaven man.love it :)