i am tire.

gosh!!my passion and love for it was gone.
it slowly fade and kills and gone.

TPSU
it was like.ruth is so passionate to run for tpsu election when she was year 1.
getting so involved in all the events in tpsu, endless to name it.
was like the web ic to call ppl, the ic for ccn day booth (but didnt do well), a leader for TP rawks, for DPA, and a GL for reliz FO!!
and also help out for every event i can help.
i even went to the extend to be a committee in DnD 2009 committee.
year 1.1 was like the best awesome time.so ra-ra about su.
every single time i go in su lounge.everyone is so happy to see u and say hello.
one sem go past.2nd sem came.that was the time.ruth is tired.
she stop going lounge if u guys realised and start to hang out with her classmates daily.
hanging out with classmates is really fun.we had bubble tea and fries together.
the love and bond between me and them, i couldnt find one in su at all somehow.
i was being used in su, step over.i know some of u dun know.cause it isnt obvious.
and ppl change.they wanna know u for a reason.to get the votes for the next election.
like what the hell?come on man.i am super disappointed.no true friend in su? :(

next.DnD was tough.i become the main comm of DnD as yanti left.everything is thrown at me at once.everything.i went blanked.like GOD, help me.and i keep hearing in meeting every mon night ' ruth u have to do this do that, time to wake up...' and stuff.i was like.no one is helping me.i am dying.slowly left there to die.until they realised i am dying, then they started to send aid.gosh!wake up man!is that how u treat pple?come on man.
but one thing i dun regret is to make good friends, super good friends with Michelle and Cheryl.gossiping and going crazy with them is the best.my bet.
DnD booth was a diaster.i was there like always.nearly miss my class.and even my own main comm isnt helping me.what kind of crap is that?ruth is strong ar, surviving doing it herself?NO!!i am not.that was the worse week of my sch life.my bet.

and to those who are running su.my best regards to you all:)
i will vote for all of u.thanks for being my friend too :)
jiayou.and dun forget about your studies yea.awesome :)
and i wanna thank su for training me.
i am really sorry that i am not running su.although sometimes i feel like.

to
claudine : thanks for giving me endless chance to be someone in su. and always be there to help me and guide me along.it is really awesome.without u, i cant survive in su at all.thanks.
edwin : thanks for training me in DnD,i really enjoyed myself.and i learned alot of thing through u.i really look up to you.really.thanks. :) and u super zai, result is like gpa 3.5 and u are really good at handling ppl man.haha. XD
john : hey gm senior.pe capts too.rock on man.i know u always got the expectation from me.and i really trying to fulfill it.cause i dun want to disappoint you.ur happy go luckiness really rock.u gave me the role of web ic really train me to be more confident to call and talk to ppl.thank you
ella : hey babe, u are really pretty.i love u man.thanks for the guidance u gave me.and the love u show on me.u rock man.
emilla : hello dear, u are one of the closet mc i m with, willing to spend lunch time with me and never miss the chance to hug me.i really feel love with u.thank you.u really shower so much love to me.thank you :)
brandon : good looking president, u are really caring and is an encouragment to me.working with u at dpa rock.thank you.u teaches me alot.u rock man. :)
zain : cai with the n.haha.thanks man.my dpa partner.i wont forget your story telling and the encouragement u gave me.to do my best with all my heart in all things i do.really engrave in my heart.i will never forget about it.thank you.
yvonne : the cutest loveliest mc.haha.she is love too man.she always talk so sweet and nicely.and although i hardly see u.but u treated me so well.xie xie ni.
gideon : wow!!u rock my life man!my fa.best one.u never scold me or scream at me.ur laughter and joke always make me laugh endlessly.and thanks for touch rugby.it was awesome.u rock gideon.i dun know what else to tell u le.love man love.
kah yuen : my venos hgl.u rock man.although u hardly talk to me.but can see that ur leadership potential is really good.awesome.i look up to u seriously.best of all:)
geraldine : really nice mc.but when fierce, i wil run away first.seriously.but still, nice to meet you.
chris : lame shit hell.u super kuku i swear.but super nice to shihui.really.sh is bless.and ur nonsense in dnd really made me feel less stress.thanks man.haa :)
tat yi : i dun know u at all actually.cause i dun interact with u.but u are zai.really.rock on yea. :)



BSC
i was hardly involved in bsc events.i thought i could be active when i became the sub comm of smile a wish.but now, smile a wish is gone.dun know where it goes.i really made good friends in bsc.curly, eugene and i cant think le.anyway.thank you Lingyu for giving me the chance to be a adhl.able to lead like hundreds of freshies.i was impress with myself too.but is God's work.not mine.haha.praise GOD.the only thing i can rmb enjoyed myself is the nights i spend with other adhls.snatching the fans, sleeping outside the class rooms together and eat out together.going crazy together, do shit work together too.and desmond making me ended up sleeping on the floor and taking my sleeping bag as blanket.haha.although u tried to block the cold wind for me.we are really bond.now i am close to gabriel and fengsheng.they are really nice.thank you for everything. :)
and to my sls that helped me out, u all really rock man.ur constant support is awesome.and now,we are good friends.i love it :)
not that i am bias or what, somehow i feel more love in bsc man.the day we got champion,i hold back my tears.the experience i had with bsc is awesome.thank you so much for this chance.
it is once in a life time.u guys rock man :)
after today sharing by mc, and seeing the ppl who wanna run.my feel for bsc gone.everyone ask me since last year.RUTH!WHICH ONE DO U WANNA RUN?!?! TPSU OR BSC?
i was like NONE.IGUDIES??haha.and i was told bsc no one is going to run.so i decided to run bsc.but now.i m totally bore of it.thanks Hong Chan for telling me straight into my face, was so good about running.(he told me for one year le, like go su for what.keep su su su.) he is really a good buddy to me.

Ling yu : I love you to the max.u really rock my life.thanks for giving me the chance to be a adhl.and so sorry to disappoint u.cause i am not runnning le.but thanks for the support u gave me.i love you totally.
Nic : bad boy.always bully me.but thanks for being nice and supporting me at times.thank you.nice to be your friend.lamer. :)
Caleb : same name as my brother.anyway.thanks man.my fa for yaezon.was awesome.u are the best fa.my bet.hehe.my veons gl somemore.wahaha. :)
Shihui : my olympia leader.u rock man.can feel the love u gave when i was year 1.u guys win, i drink 2-3bottles of mineral water.and supports us like mad even though u are sick.u are really love. :)


i left the mtg today with a heavy heart,asking daddy GOD for direction.cause daddy GOD told me not to run for su.(but will heart itchy la) then now i got bsc to settle.and janice darling advice wake me up.really.and remembering what Coach Gary says.it is time to stop my nonsense.promising my mum one year ago, not to have any ccas, but ended up with 6 ccas, quitted all 3 sports cca in 6 months, and survived with 3 clubs cca.the one really rock my life, is IGUIDES!really.there is why i found C.R.Y and true friends.my bet.to those who says i guides cui.i tell u straight in the face : BETTER RUN AWAY FROM MY SIGHT!! u should try joining sub comm and get what i mean.iguides is really love.u will regret not joining iguides i tell u.
now ruth really feels like just be iguides main comm.best man.i feel so free.and love.


IGUIDES
what is love and true friendship.u can find in iguides.my bet.
this is where i found CRY!claudia, ruth and yvonne.
really love man.we are still hanging out now.celebrating birthdays,sharing our daily life problems with one another.influencing one another.be entertainment to one another.hugging each other really really tight when we see each other.will support one another in everything we do.we laugh and cry together.really.
thanks iguides for training me as a mock comm.preparing me to be a main comm for iguides.really tough to do open house man.walking like mad, discuss like mad too.those ppl who say iguides sucks, go and bang wall, cause i learn alot from iguides.really.how to plan out the open house, use the walki, arrange things and more... and we got outing together, counting down at marina bay was awesome.feel the love when someone gave up his shoe for me when i hurts my leg with heels.so love can.hehe. :)
to all main comms : u all rocks my life.really.thank you for impacting my life.u guys really rock man :) and thanks derek for taking care of me all these while.and janice phua and susan rock my life.they are damn love can.please.and leslie is super sweet, willing to scarifice, our secret.hehe.:)


my busy life.my maddnes life.missing lesson.trying to catch up.doing tutorial.slotting in lect to go.

but one thing i wanna do is to spend time with these group of ppl in my life :
- church friends
- drusilla
- CRY
- sec sch friends (gm in tp)
- random bangs
- avril, rambert, chester, hongchan, zhanshou
- iguides love ---janice, susan.......
- reliez love
- cheryl wang (veon love)
- models
- cheryl & michelle.

for ppl who are in tp yea.and not in order.just wanna meet u all.argh!
miss u all badly man.really bad.
alrighty.ruth need some rest.take care.tata. :)